Saturday, June 9, 2007
Jaipur
***Above is all at the Delhi Bus Depot***
Today we headed off pretty early in the morning for the bus depot in the NICE part of Delhi (post aloo/puri made by Acchelal)...we passed India Gate...Parliament...Prime Minister's residence on our way to catch our luxury bus. Today was definitely living the Indian hi-life...our bus was AC...cushioned seats...tinted windows...the works. A comfortable 5 hour ride to Jaipur---riding on the bus and train in India beats out flying almost anytime...just so much to see and keep you entertained. Arrived at the Jaipur depot and then were driven to IIHMR. Definitely a nice place...sorta set away from the chaos of the city and after days we all are in a area w/some level of sanity :):):) Read no rickshaws or cars or people or vegetable sellers etc etc etc. Settled into our rooms...enjoyed a pretty nice dinner in a sorta fancy setting---you will see w/the pictures...and then found this American style computer lab...first comfort zone on the computer since we arrived :):):)
Enough of the day's happenings...below I am pasting in something that I read earlier today and has really struck a chord in my mind...
BEING IN TWENTIES - SOMETHING
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...
We call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
FATE DETERMINES WHO COMES INTO OUR LIVES.....HEART DETERMINES WHO STAYS
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FINALLY you are in Jaipur!!! I have fallen behind on my blog reading because I was in a place where what happens there, stays there. But I am back now and happily reading your entries. I am glad to see that Emma is still there and looking somewhat rested. I know she was considering coming home.
Anyway, interesting stuff so far. I wish I could see the extremes you are talking about.
Thanks for that 20 something thing. Nice to know I'm not the only one who feels that way!
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